I Spent Memorial Day with Gertrude Stein

Generic blankness 

               fantasies  and  of 

a long weekend               what have her sentences done to me

the event

I chose [preferred] not to explain

closure from which you can’t trace the opening 

Her continuous present construed in the past

means, emancipation from “the enervated body” and

       “the leaden privacy of

      the lyric”

But we like 

              our memory tracks

Bodylore.  What is

He signs, –TG.

My guides, they are not

double – the other that mirrors 

the other inside.

We can never be truly friends until I get over my jealousy 

Cycles of joy,

disappointment.

Repetitions?  The emphases she says are never the same

Obsession with doors:

Ordinary, or

Golden.

The open road.

I keep all of my old notebooks, they are funny.

My status has not been updated for  >72 hrs.

Who we each are inside.  Is this changing.  I saw what he was doing provoking to no purpose & didn’t respond.  

This is what every generation does.

Anxieties of coming late on the scene, meaning irrelevance.  Meaning, nothing to be done.  

Meaning, weeee! & no one watching

Why! Don’t! You! Love! Me

& without reason not to

I have to do laundry.  I have to catch a train.

I have to

A nude with a medieval castle in the background

the background of word-system

is hugging a sofa cushion.

              (Propitiating story/ 

              Life extension

              Not about it.  IT)

It just so happens she felt herself to be different.  

It  just so happens the boundary between us

fluxes,

It just so happens I’m older & so, 

should know I don’t want to write

that way   as her   any longer I want

what it is I have.  What made me sick   that recalled item

The birds can be saved

but the effects at the other site still felt

>20 yrs. later

bitterness        biosystems

background of systems

the Land.